On the July 13th episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians, 30 year-old reality star Khloe Kardashian continues to deal with the demise of her marriage with estranged husband 34 year-old professional basketball player Lamar Odom. During the episode she reveals that she knew Lamar cheated on her while they were married.
“He’s now wearing his ring full time”
“F–k your ring. You were wearing it when you were f—ing someone, too.”
Later on in the episode she receives a text from one of Odom’s friends asking if they were getting back together, and responds with frustration to her fellow reality sister Kourtney:
“Let me tell you something. Last year on my birthday, I lied to everyone because I had to lie and say I was with my husband, when in fact my husband was missing with another girl, okay? And I lied, and I gave up my Beyonce tickets…and I didn’t have a birthday! I was alone and lied to everyone!”
She further explains her view on Odom and his conversations with the press.
“Lamar is now doing press because he’s on a new team, and he’s giving these interviews and answering questions about him and I, but they’re just not true—saying that he talks to me every day or that we’re working things out,”
“I feel like people are almost questioning, like, have I done enough? But I can’t reach him for months on end, I would just rather him not say anything because it almost, like, gets my hopes up and then nothing ever changes.”
Khloe later throws a few parties to ease her mind off of her divorce, where her sister Kourtney accuses her of being a “drunky monkey,” while step-father Bruce Jenner explains that it seems like Khloe is trying to “mask her feelings” about the end of her marriage. Kourtney’s boyfriend Scott Disick, also becomes worried and expresses.
“Both Khloe and I have had a tough year and a lot of problems. And, you know, watching Khloe kinda take her mind off the negatives with alcohol and partying and all these things definitely scares me because I’ve been there before. If I’m seeing it, that must be a lot.”
Well divorce is tough! I outta know. Despite the reason and why. Also living in a fake marriage tends to rip you from the inside. You mask your feelings so others don’t worry about your well-being. You do not want to talk down about your spouse in public as despite all the chaos, both of you do not want to defame each other’s character. Who do you turn to? People think you can turn to your family and friends, but you first have to be comfortable with your situation. Each of the parties have to overcome embarrassment and feeling like a failure for their part in the demise of the marriage. There are hurt feelings, but your family and friends have also grown to love your spouse as a person. Despite your feelings toward that person and how they may not have treated you the best or differences of opinions led to your demise, does not make that person to be horrible or even if they are, should you influence your hurt and guilt onto other’s opinions? Or even so, not everyone will always understand your point of view. Or you feel that everyone has their own problems and lives, that you do not want to complicate their lives with your issues.
However, it all eventually comes out. In Khloe’s case which I can relate to, an escalating set of emotions overcame her. During my divorce and after, I partied and drank with my friends more than normal. It kept me away from the reality of my situation. And when dealing with the reality, I had a few melt downs. And unlike Khloe who had family near her, my melt downs were maybe in front of people that may not always had my best interest in mind. I have reflected over the past year, while I did have moments that were great, a part of me wish I would have handled my emotions at times in a better outlet. The ‘Strong-Willed” eventually do come full circle and become better people as a resulf of experience. I believe Khloe has persevered and despite that one episode of her break-down, She has embodied impeccable class and carried herself as a lady through the media. It is okay for a break-down or two. We all have been there!